~xo~

They say you need to love yourself before you can love another

My Warrior Princess of Badassery

Two similar pieces of a jigsaw puzzle

never fit just right with each other

And if you and I are similarly odd

similarly flat

similarly skinny little pieces of a puzzle

in hobo pants, war paint and Samurai hair

At least I know that we are

two

ill-fated,

slightly banged up

irregular pieces of the same puzzle.

And I love you regardless -

I am almost glad I can't not.

~

"It is hard to stop loving the ocean"

~

I've washed you out of the clothes I took back from your apartment

But the smell still lingers

In the air

You still linger

In the breeze in my hair

In that canvas still bare

In the colors I do not wear

Anymore.

~

Your love is a sweet vortex

and I'm free falling out of reality

I speak my honest lies

As long as we can keep up the pretense

your glitter laugh is my momentary truth

sweet pirate-breath pixie

~

I was not made for winter - 
I was not made for your song and dance
For love, and sparkly lights,
And warmth in the eyes of a boy.
I was not made to withstand fire and ice
Virtue and base, unapologetic vice
And laughter that sounds like glitter

I was not made prepared
for quiet nights in your arms
Or the way you cooked your eggs

~

This summer child was not made for

Cold eyes.

Cold feet.
Iced whiskey
White bathroom lights and tiled floors
Wet footprints from where you stood with your arms around me
My hair warming my neck
Your heart heating my face
Frosty fingers
Numb toes
Cold noses touching in the night.

~

Honey it smells like you and I stop in my tracks
Blink hard and try to see where I am

Breathe in deep and go looking for the smell
That stopped my heart - I know I'm going to hell

But the only thing I still like about you is your perfume

When it smells like you I think of all that you'd do

Your pretty eyes and the way they'd look into mine
Lunch, sweet kissing and glasses of wine

I see you and I feel just about nothing

But if it smells like you I know I'm in trouble