Unpretty

It hurts
Like a steel monster
Staring me down
Crushing my throat
Punching my guts
When I
The ugly duckling
Look in the same mirror
As you, the fair one
Who is ugly inside

You do not deserve your beauty
Nor I, my lack thereof
Yet if I were beautiful
And you were not
My heart would have been
As ugly
As you

Why, then, do I rue your luck
If “all that matters is what’s inside”

They lied
Looks do matter
But I do not know why


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